Guiding Hand

The Father is working His good work. Today I see the fruit of Faithfulness. Not that I have done different, but I have focused on His faithfulness. In return I see my own faithfulness giving way like tsunami wave. Crashing down. Destroying pride, anger, and frustrations of daily rejection and misunderstanding. It is beautiful. In that strange way that natural disaster is awesome in power yet leaves devastation in it's wake. There is destroying. It is as deep and as mighty as the ocean. myself. It is being crucified. It is wonderful.
I am hurt, I love. I am rejected, I give. I am called upon, I serve. I am isolated, I pray. These lessons that I am learning I believe are not for a time. In younger year I would study and take the exam and forget. Not these lessons. They are written on the frame of myself. They erase old experiences that taught me wrong. On scratch markings and scars there are words beyond what I could write today. (Ps. 100:5, Rom 8:37, 2 Thes 2:16, and Rv 1:5) He is jealous God. He desires you and I to trust Him. I learned young that people could not be trusted. They desert you, reject you, use you, and laugh at you until  you are wounded and raw. The Father's desire is not to leave one of his precious creation lacking anything. (ps 34:10) He has the awesome power of turning all things for good! It is His will that we walk a road that makes us more and more like Emmanuel. God is with us. How beautiful is that? That He would allow things to happen. Hard things to happen. And in the end I become more like him.
This is what I am seeing. The more I trust Father's faithfulness to work it's good in me, (Rom 8:28) the more I am free in myself to love and live! Here and now in every trial.I can see his blessings in this mist. My life. Yes, there is pain, frustration, unanswered wondering, but I am not alone. He is here and I trust his guiding hand. (ps 139:10)