Me.
A simple word.
A whole identity is behind that word. A real person. With thoughts, emotions, dreams, relationships, wounds, history, looks, clothes...
m e .
That is how I would describe it. This frustration with a fragmented self. Desiring greatly to combine the letters and that dot at the end that brings forth the end cap of security. But the truth is....I just don't feel it. I struggle with putting it all together in the light of Christ.
There are parts of me that I just don't want exposed. What stays in the dark does tend to get bigger there, but I don't think I want to face the pain of revealing it.
Like when I crawl out of the tunnel after looking for crayfish and the sun blinds my eyes. It is painful and I have to shield myself from the light. My eyes need time to adjust to the sun.
My heart needs time to adjust too. It is hard to face the different parts of our selves but true healing is when all the body, mind, soul, and strength come together in unity to worship in Spirit and in truth.
So I let the light shine in.
I invite the light to have it's way of exposing.
I trust the Light Himself. He is a shield about me.
Then the bliss comes. Sharing that fire tried gold with others. That precious sweet smellingness that perfumes of one centered and secure in the only One who can. I can now be a light that shines in dark places. Extending Grace. Extending Light.
That is
me.
A simple word.
A whole identity is behind that word. A real person. With thoughts, emotions, dreams, relationships, wounds, history, looks, clothes...
m e .
That is how I would describe it. This frustration with a fragmented self. Desiring greatly to combine the letters and that dot at the end that brings forth the end cap of security. But the truth is....I just don't feel it. I struggle with putting it all together in the light of Christ.
There are parts of me that I just don't want exposed. What stays in the dark does tend to get bigger there, but I don't think I want to face the pain of revealing it.
Like when I crawl out of the tunnel after looking for crayfish and the sun blinds my eyes. It is painful and I have to shield myself from the light. My eyes need time to adjust to the sun.
My heart needs time to adjust too. It is hard to face the different parts of our selves but true healing is when all the body, mind, soul, and strength come together in unity to worship in Spirit and in truth.
So I let the light shine in.
I invite the light to have it's way of exposing.
I trust the Light Himself. He is a shield about me.
Then the bliss comes. Sharing that fire tried gold with others. That precious sweet smellingness that perfumes of one centered and secure in the only One who can. I can now be a light that shines in dark places. Extending Grace. Extending Light.
That is
me.
